Keep Fighting for What You Love
in my last post I told you guys to follow your intuition and go with what felt right? That even though the right people will guide you through tough choices, it's down to you to figure out what you want?
Well, I'm going to be honest with you. I didn't follow through what I said and opposed it, and by the end of the day, I regretted it.
I was peer pressured into the opposite choice in the last hour before the deadline. Some people made me believe that the school I planned on going to, the one that felt right for me, was a stupid decision... That I would make fake friends. That I wouldn't be happy playing a higher level volleyball because it was "too hard" for me. That I would be stereotyped as Asian like the majority of the school was.
None of what they said was true either. I mean, there are fake people wherever you go and I'm pretty sure I'll be fine making new friends. Plus, there are people I know to who go to that school already, and I don't need to make a hundredkabillion (that's a number now) friends to be happy anyway.
Even after all this bull shhh they threw at me, and because I was already stressing out, I gave in.
By the end of the next day, I switched my registration back over to my first choice, and I felt grounded again, and like I had more control over my life. It's been a few days since, and I've definitely felt so much better.
One of my close guy friends told me to keep fighting for what I love.
I love how kind and supportive my friends are, and I am so grateful to have him in my life, as this was what kept me going strong for the next following days.
Today I found a hidden note inside my notebook I use for blog planning, written by my mum:
Although I kinda wish I found this sooner, this was the perfect boost for me this evening, and it did make me cry a lil bit. Was NOT expecting that today, haha.
I hope you guys don't mind this post being a lot longer than usual! This is such an important topic to me, and I feel it's really important to let you guys know that you're not alone with anything you're experiencing, and that it's 100% OK to talk about it.
Whether that's through your own blog, to someone close, or in the comments of Wanderlust Girl.
I encourage all of you to spill anything that has been putting stress on you and let me know how you're getting on, in the comments below.
I love you guys xx
PS. Make sure you've seen my post, "Important Decisions & Following Your Intuition" so my rambles here make a lil more sense :)